DIARY
DECEMBER 25TH 2024
the year has gone by so fast. i want time to slow down, i’m scared of not being present enough, of not taking it all in. and yet i am so impatient to see what else there is. i realize i am so lucky to be feeling this way. this year has been special, just very creatively fulfilling and i feel i have grown a lot as a person, i’m more confident and much more at ease in any social situation.
im really just thankful for old and new friends. for family. and for creative endeavors hihi, i have no idea where i am going in life which is a bit scary but i know i want to create and i know i can’t help but to just enjoy so much of it, uncertainty and all.
OCTOBER 31ST 2024
probably had one of the best summers of my life this year. which has also led to the complete and devastating abandonment of this website. i guess it’s what they say, there’s only so many hours in a day. filming of the shortfilm i directed went extremely well, everything came together and we created something that i believe to be pretty special. currently editing. i find myself a little burnt out when it comes to filmmaking, i do have ideas but i feel tired when i even think of executing them. maybe i just need a break from that and focus on shorter videos/films that don’t require as much of a production effort.
started a new job at the movies which has been good to me so far. winter is approaching and i can’t help but feel a little emotional and confused. but life is good right now and i don’t want to be ungrateful. as the wind is getting icy i find there’s plenty of warmth in my friends’ laughter.
JUNE 4TH 2024
it’s been exactly one month since i launched this website. there will be times where i will post more on here. currently the days feel shorter than usually. there is so much i want to do and so little hours in a day. constantly working on this short film “GROWING PAINS” that i wrote and am going to direct end of august. it’s probably my favorite thing i have ever done and worked on, and mind you i don’t yet know how it will turn out but it feels special. more meaningful and just something that fills me to the brim with excitement.
there is plenty of stress of course and i’m working on balancing it all and finding time to think about other things. it was my moms 60th birthday party last weekend. life seems to be passing me by at the speed of light, there’s grief that comes with that but luckily the bliss outweighs it and glitters.
MAY 4TH 2024
just launched. big big thank you to sabrina for helping me come up with the name and luzie for her coding skills. i myself really am no IT girl as much as i would like to be, so i know not everything aligns perfectly but it is what it is. enjoy! also thank you to everyone who has endured my endless yapping about this and who gave me their thoughts and ideas.
MAY 4TH 2024
about to launch the website and its starting to feel a little scary. how come things like posting videos on youtube are embarrassing only until you’re successful with it? are things only worthy when lots of people approve of them? either way im sick of my imposter syndrome.
APRIL 20TH 2024
first entry, no one here except me, which feels oddly peaceful.